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Name: Cathy
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Birthday: 5/1/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: Studying... J/K. Playing Softball, hanging with friends... dang maybe I need to get a hobby :)!
Expertise: Working at the Hospital, being a nursing student, a nanny, and being the best friend I can.
Occupation: Medical
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Member Since:
7/30/2003
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| Here I am at work... making it through another day. Lee is gone now and I'm trying to learn to ajust as an individual! we are going to try to make it work... but who knows cause we are both young. I must hang out with too many older people because there is a part of me that really feels like "my clock is ticking." but in truth not yet. I keep having to remind myself of that. So I started this site a long time ago and it's amazing how much I have grown and changed. It really helped me as a way of therapy. don't get me wrong i still feel crazy at times but without an outlet at times I'd probably be much worse. All in all I have so very much to be greatful for. Today i am running chemo and I guess everytime I do that it reminds me of how lucky I am to not be going through that myself. well I will stop my sob story... Oh my gosh let me just add how tired i am. I am dog sitting Lee's mom's dog and he woke me up 3 times last night to go out... i was already having trouble sleeping in Lee's old bed... boy i could have just killed him. | | |
| Life can change with in a second... we feel like everything is great and then it all does a huge 360! so everything with Lee is going great... I finally feel as though we are meant to be in a relationship together! It has taken me a long time to feel this way about anyone and especially him. we have been through a long journey to reach where we are... here is the 360! Lee got the job in Conneticut he really wanted. It is such a great opportunity for his future... I should be happy for him right? but the idea of losing my best friend really is hard. It hurts my heart. Who will I do everything with? I just feel so abandoned! That is selfish of me isn't it? I'm sick of being strong... am i being unreasonable... probably not... I just feel like a mess! I keep thinking God has a plan in all this... however it is hard to see it now! Oh God help me make it through this. | | |
| HELLO WORLD!!! So what do I have to say! Lee is back! very mixed feelings about that... at what point can you tell if a relationship just is not possible? and if so how do you let go of someone you feel so strongly for? These are all things I really should know right? then why is it so hard? I could use God for some guidence! Prayers please! | | |
| how do I feel? CONFUSED! LOST! really weird how things have gone for me over this last year... I feel like I'm riding a roller coaster and I want to pull the emergency lever! I WANT OFF! I want to stop having such bad luck. I want to stop being surrounded by drama... I just want to relax and enjoy the sunshine. I want sunshine. And i want to do it alone and feel ok with being alone. I just feel so stir crazy and yet unable to motivate myself to achieve what I want to! URGHHH that is my sound of frustration! | | |
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